Sunday, November 3, 2013

Somethings...

There are things you cannot force
Things you cannot earn
They must be given from the source
These things you cannot learn

A connection between souls
As precious as is rare
like a spoon for a bowl
Completion when you’re near

There’s things in life I can’t explain
like a language from within
Sometimes these things can cause us pain
They cast out where we’ve been

The energy ‘tween you and I
Requires we go west
but I’ll understand if south you fly
back to your prior nest

There are things you cannot force
At most you can inspire
Sometimes the ending is remorse
We're strengthened by the fire.

Akin Ogunsola
November 3, 2013

Friday, November 1, 2013

Lies...

In conversation we weave in our lies
where the truth in our hearts is kept
Weakness, in public, our tongue decries
forgetting memories under rugs we swept

Why can’t we put our truths in front
and for our sins we face the brunt?
The bible says that truth will set us free
so why do we lie... Why can’t we see?

A cloak of lies we sew in vain
can’t we see it is the plague?
We dress in filth to soothe our pain
and live a life fruitless and vague

For me a lie waits like a reaper
In little doses grows like a creeper
waiting to devour the guilty sleeper
to corrupt the core, darker, and deeper

They say perfect love casts out all fear
perhaps the bible offers a clue
that if I hold you close, and draw you near
you’ll drop your lies, and simply be you.

Akin Ogunsola
November 1, 2013

Monday, December 31, 2012

Andoral

Once upon a time in the vast lands of middle earth, man, goblin, elf and ork lived in peace. This was not a tense kind of peace brought about by treaties and agreements, but a transparent peace, where one could argue that they were truly unaware of their differences.
It was in this time that a young ork fell in love with the maiden of elves. For years they enjoyed a happiness that was as pure as it was unlikely. This pair was cut from the same roll, the only difference being that she is an elf, and he, an ork.
Now legends had spoken of a terrible evil, a faceless enemy that would one day seek to destroy the very fabric of peace in middle earth, or at least to alter it forever. Let’s just say kids, that this evil came upon middle earth and turned man from troll, troll from elf, and elf from ork. Middle earth was divided into factions with treaties, diplomacies and worst of all, tensions.
These tensions did not spare the young couple, and despite the all-encompassing nature of their affection, they were soon thrust into a demonizing cycle of expectations, disappointments and preconceptions. The darkness had begun to descend… but the legends also spoke of one other thing…
Andoral – the name of the mightiest sword in all of middle earth.
Andoral. A sword whose very existence is bathed in myth, marinated in rumor, wrapped in mystery and influenced by culture and the changing times…! The mere fact that the ancient texts would describe this weapon as being the only hope for middle earth, to many, this seemed a death sentence already delivered.
And so it was, many an ork and elf saw the better days of their union lost to bickering and contempt – the warmth of every heart was lost to a coating of ice. In fact, so deep and wicked was the plan of the faceless enemy that in just a matter of months, orks, elves and humans could barely remember what the peaceful times felt like, nor could they understand why they had even sought peace to begin with! The foundations of compassion, friendship, love and forgiveness had been eaten away, never to be restored.
But our young ork, despite the hardness of his heart towards the elven maiden, despite the endless conflicts rising daily in the heart middle earth, despite not feeling loved by the one he cherished the most, our young ork would never deny the profoundness of the bond he shared with this maiden. Surely the world had gone mad! And though his heart and body screamed injustice! Though his anger lashed out with such ferocity that he might as well have been the mindless barbarian described in the hottest of insults… our young ork had his memories, and would never deny the sincerity of his maiden in those moments.
Unknown to him, across the middle earth on the other side of the dark veil set down by the faceless one, the maiden fought a similar battle within herself. The basis for things she loved about our young ork had suddenly become grounds for crimes – crimes that diminished his worth in her heart. On one hand she loved that the ork cared much for her, but ever since the tensions began, the very existence of these tensions alongside their affection felt more like a betrayal of trust and nonchalant possessiveness. Indeed these were dark times, but she would never let herself forget the memories… the trueness that they had once felt.
And that was when it ROARED! The faceless enemy lurched forward out of the nether and into the heart of middle earth! For the first time the truth behind this even creature was revealed – it’s cunning! It’s manipulation! The ability to mislead by misinterpretation! Truly this was a creature unlike any ever seen!! It was always present, always awake, searching for a casual shrug or side-eye to embellish with the most convincing exaggerations of contempt! Middle earth was oblivious to its presence… all except 2 young warriors… one young ork, and his elven maiden.
The ancient texts had spoken of Andoral as a sword that is summoned by its wielder in a time of great need… and now the ork understood. Of course the legendary sword Andoral existed! There it was right in his hand, where it has always been! A sword of flames that burned brighter than anything else he’d ever seen! These flames slowly melted the ice around his heart, and equally unrealistically, began to melt a portion of the beasts’ face that faced the ork.
In that same moment, right next to the ork, but separated by dark clouds so he could not see, the elven maiden had discovered her Andoral as well as was standing up to the beast! And as her sword burned brighter, the ice around her heart began to melt, as well as the portion of the beasts’ face that faced her directly.
It was in this moment that the unthinkable happened! The dark clouds lifted and the young ork, together with his maiden found themselves side by side… holding on to their Andorei (that’s like plural for Andoral haha). They look up, just in time to see the double headed beast standing calm as portions of its many heads melt away. But what they saw did not surprise them – this couple understood - they had already figured out the ancient teachings… they had found peace again. This time would be different. This time, this was a peace they would fight for, together, a peace they would protect together until the end. And with these last thoughts they charged towards the beast! The ork to the head of the beast that was the image of himself, and the elf to the head of the beast that was the image of herself – an eternal battle to protect their union, yet at the same time, finding the peace they once knew in the fight to protect it.
And so they fought for many eternities… protecting one another, in love, in peace, and in duty… And they were not alone. Some others joined in the fight against the beast that is themselves, to protect their unions…
Andoral – A sword that pierces only its wielder… in a bid to preserve all that is precious.
Unfortunately, many are still unable to face themselves to protect those they love the most. I write you today because I know you are not one of these people… but more importantly because I want this to be yet another memory: The day we began to fight ourselves, for ourselves.
Sincerely,
Your Ork. 
Akin Ogunsola | 2012

Sunday, November 11, 2012

The Hard Road

Sometimes the challenge lies not on the road ahead, but on the road within. Our penchant for stability in life is often explained off as a kind of risk mitigation – but what if what we are truly trying to mitigate is the change in us that life surely brings. We are loathe to change rapidly because who we are today is a collection of years of experience, emotion and interpretation. For that sole reason love is both exhilarating and terrifying. We change, we adapt, all so we can accommodate the existence of another into our own – and it requires a kind of temporary insanity which is just what love is. This is also why heartbreak is the ultimate disaster. All that inner change, the adaptation of hopes and dreams – all for what seem like naught. The worst part is that we have to unlearn being with that person, the ultimate insult on the ultimate injury. But sometimes, just sometimes, we are better for it.

Akin Ogunsola | November 2012

Saturday, November 10, 2012

The Harvest

Slowly I stir from cold dark sleep

Beats in my chest, life yet in me
Darkness fades but sorrow proves
Tears still fall beneath closed lids

Wisdom offered ‘s a waste of time
When have words ever wet a thirst?
Persist you might to bring me cheer
What good’s a cup of tea in hell

My old friend time keeps marching on
Helping old smiles fade to scars
The worldly realm is now awake
Hollow eyes still wish for stars

What’s wrong you ask? I cannot say
Why do you cry? I’m not okay
You need to talk; Can’t talk today…
I’ll protect you! Just go away

The morning sun stares at my face
Warming me to flirt with hope
To flirt with thoughts of brand new days
No broken dreams; No pointless pain

Heavy lids part for the morn
Damn the sun, it always wins
Here we go, One day in hand
Lets plant new lies, and reap old truths

Akin Ogunsola | November 2012

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Out of adversity...

I remember last night, the things you said
The silent tears you cried in bed 
And there with me, your pain you shared 
Faith hung on by just a thread   

I knew not what to say or do 
I remember last night, I cried with you 
And there we lay, I cried with you
And there we lay… …Déjà vu   

I won’t repeat those words you spoke 
I won’t betray – I’d rather choke 
I remember last night, the night I broke 
The night of things we can’t revoke   

Maybe life is best unfair 
And from its ache we learn to care 
Maybe hearts bond in despair 
I remember last night, for I was there

“Out of adversity, valor is born”


Akin Ogunsola 
April 2009


Monday, March 30, 2009

Assignment #4

Hand, sand, manage, carnage; 
Love, above, dream, scream; 
Lives, gives, slaves, knaves; 
Ring, sing, true, woo. 
Words by Dara Lanlehin     

An atheist’s lament   

What dirty joke is at my hand? 
Given life, yet made of sand 
Death will come - no choice but manage 
Keeping sane within the carnage   

We spend our days in search of love 
If we don’t find, we search above 
This f***ing thing is like a dream 
Makes me sick I want to scream   

Who hands out death and who lives? 
Who takes my joy and who gives? 
Is life a gift, or are we slaves 
The poor, the rich... are they the knaves? 
  
A bell within this song might ring 
What is my cause, each heart must sing 
I wait the day when all's made true 
The day that death shall gently woo     


Akin Ogunsola 
March 2009

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Assignment #3

Writing had become a little slow - to be honest I had started to see similarities in what I wrote and more importantly how I expressed my ideas from one poem to the other. To fix this I had some friends give me complete sets of words that rhymed and forced myself to write within the boundaries of the random words. This is my 3rd Assignment (there's a total of 5 groups of rhyming words given & written for so far).

Broken, smitten, forbidden, shaken;
State, wait, fate, hesitate;
Away, delay, stay, day;
Please, tease, release, appease.
Words by Adun Ladehinde


You stand and ask me why I'm broken
Demand an answer cuz now you're smitten
The plan was physical, emotions forbidden
It's yours, not mine, whos world you've shaken

Still you try to change my state
Even claim you're prep'd to wait
But you should know you can't change fate
I will move on, won’t hesitate

Say what you like, I'll walk away
The more you rant, less the delay
You ask yourself, "Why bother stay"
I whisper back, "Why waste the day"

Go right ahead, do as you please
Say I'm no good, call me a tease
I've held you back? You want release?
You're just like me, your flesh appease.


Akin Ogunsola
March, 2009

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Last time

It’s hard to love once, harder still to love twice
Feels like the ground freezes as you kneel to gather your heart
Like the sun is out but you’re covered in ice
Broken pieces just never heal right…

Some say in time all wounds mend
But time is scarce beneath the stars
Life is short, let’s not pretend...
And Tuesday’s wounds are Wednesday’s scars

And even if the scars are few
Even if the icecaps melt
Even still if you start anew
There’s no running from what you felt…

So where do you go to escape your thoughts?
To find that peace that you desperately need
What do you do when you’ve reopened your cuts?
What do I do? I watch myself bleed…


Alternate endings:

I say a creed
I smoke some weed…
I write a screed…


Akin Ogunsola
2008

Untitled...

It’s interesting how you can be in a room full of people yet feel alone – better still when your head is full of voices yet you’re all alone... The burden you bear no one understands; But how do you protect the wind from harm? If you keep it in a jar you take away its essence – yet letting it free, you risk losing it to the currents… losing its uniqueness, the very thing that makes it yours – your wind, your heart… what does it mean to protect your heart… if you jar it up, you’ll never find love – then what’s the point of having one? Still I understand that to let it free would be to risk breaking it, betraying it…

Its easy to shut out the world, to let people in as far as it takes to fill their shallow greed… and still keep your soul locked away, the part of you that can be broken – the gems, the treasures… the memories that if ever reached could give another the power to make you fall to your knees… I understand… perhaps it is because I am similar, not as far-gone as you are… but similar. So I’ll say this once, but only once because its all that my pride would allow – I’m not one to be satisfied by the easy things… the surface crust holds neither victory nor honor for me… but to understand another, to see them for the truth that they are… good and bad, to accept them… to hug ‘em when they are smelly and no one else will – to be the only one still waiting, still cheering, when the crowds are gone and they are the last to cross the finish line – these things take time to earn, but that’s what I’m here to do – to earn.

That said, I know this isn’t the last time circumstances like this will come up – who knows what the next one will look like. But for my sake, for whatever honor it is that I have left in your eyes – consider my writing today before you discard my integrity so quickly.

Akin O.

"Fall down seven times, stand up eight"

What do you know about the pain of being hurt
When you’ve given your all, when you’ve paid the highest cost
Yet looking at the finish line, with your face down in the dust
You think you understand me, you only see the crust

I cannot blame them for my loss
I made my choices, I am my boss
Life is uncertain, I lost the toss
The burden I bare, this is my cross


The disconnect between a man and a monster
How far are they indeed I wonder,
What’s it take to turn one into the other?
Take this pain away! I can’t stand it much longer

I’ll hold out as long as I need
Firmly I’ll stand, even as I bleed
I’ll earn my stripes, I’ll follow, I’ll lead
There’s good in me, make this my creed


And yet they speak like they know
Talking in whispers ‘cause they’re scared it’ll show
Cowards! The likes of you dwell six feet below
You are not prepared, hardly a foe

Check my anger, I must sedate
Twelve months have passed until this date
Let it go, don’t feed the hate…
Fall down seven times, stand up eight.


“life is history in the making…”

Akin O.
July, 2007.

A Legacy

There are times in life where we must stop and take record of the things we have done… the friends we have made, those we have lost… the good, the bad… to measure our character relative to what it was however many years ago and decide for ourselves if we are closer to the dreams we dreamt as toddlers… to test the closeness of old friends to see if they’ve become brothers… or if they’ve been set on a new course that runs different from ours… it is in these moments that we validate our presence on earth, our influence on life and it on us… our legacy.

That said, sometimes it is necessary to step out of the path that is ours, and into that of another… I’m not referring to the predetermined pattern where our lives weave in and out of those around us, but to when we deliberately decide to momentarily take up the cause of another, and fight for it like it is our own… when we lose, just so another can taste the sweetness of victory… when I suffer my voice to quiet… so that it is yours that carries on the wind…

At first glance it makes no sense, similar to throwing pearls back into the depths of the ocean – why hinder life when you’ve worked so hard to get here? The answer is this – consider life an ocean… and in the turbulence of day to day living, people get lost… swept down chaotic currents sometimes without realizing it. It hurts to lay down pearls… pride, self worth…need for justice… but I do… in hopes that the trail will lead you back to me.

Let my legacy be one of sacrifice… that we may finish together, what we started together.

Akin Ogunsola
2008

Papa...

Papa! Papa!!!

The little boy cries out to you for answers
Brothers killing brothers just to be gangsters
I saw ‘em last night pa, I saw what they did to johnny,
They shot him down pa, didn’t even take his money…
I thought you said that people stand together
That the pain we share binds us like leather
Papa, the men last night – I saw their faces
I saw ‘em pa, we’re from the same places,
Races, the man who pulled the trigger was no stranger
He’s one of us pa, now we’re in danger
I wanted to help, I wanted to scream for johnny
But I couldn’t pa, I knew that they’d find me
What do I do? What if they saw me!?
I can’t go outside pa, what if they saw me!!?
I’m scared papa, scared of my people
I’m scared ‘cause when I look at them… I see me too.

Son, my dear son
An aging man tries to explain
Amidst hope and dreams there’s lots of pain
These are difficult times, you’ll start to see
Perfected, this world will never be
The things you saw my son, yes they are true
But I promise those men are not like you

His eyes tear up for he knows within
The reality of the things that he’s seen
His son before him, the grip of fear
The darkness within has begun to leer

Hear me now! you’re filled with light…
And for that light you’ve got to fight
Many we know have lost their way
And yet another innocent might have to pay
But we cannot cower or turn our backs
For Evil grows where courage lacks

On deaf ears his words did fall
Once hopeful eyes had already dulled
So on his knees, his muscles tense
Unprepared, with no defense
The mists unite beneath his eyes
For in his arms an innocent cries…

Akin Ogunsola
2008

5 Cents

You catch my eye
Begging, Pleading…
I see your plight
Worried, Saddened…
Your cause is mine
Promise, Binding…
I’m here to fight
Purpose, Finding…


Time passes by
Winter, Seasons…
I’m led astray
Lifestyle, Reasons…
I’ll get to you
Priority, Rankings…
But not today
Fatigue, Resting…

I’ve got my life
Stressful, Tedious…
I’ve got my needs
Shelter, Lexus…
I’m not a saint
Moses, Jesus…
I feel no guilt
Hardened, Callous…

Quit looking here
Ireful, Testy…
This needs to end
Arid, Banal…
I cannot help
Working, Busy…
I’m not a friend
Serious, Final…

You catch my eye
Begging, Pleading…
The eyes of a child,
Innocent, Suffering…

for five cents a month…

Akin Ogunsola
2008

Sunday, October 7, 2007

"Takes a lifetime to build, but a moment to destroy"

Another piece from a dusty booklet...

I'm not sure where I picked up this quote, but I gave it some thought and here's the scenario that came to mind.
“Takes a lifetime to build, but a moment to destroy…”

Papa, Papa
The little boy cries out to you for answers
Brothers killing brothers just to be gangsters
I saw ‘em last night pa, I saw what they
did to johnny,
They shot him down pa, didn’t even take his money…
I thought you said that people stand together
That the pain we share binds us like leather
Papa, the men last night – I saw their faces
I saw ‘em pa, we’re from the same places,
Races, the man who pulled the trigger was no stranger
He’s one of us pa, now we’re in danger
I wanted to help, I wanted to scream for johnny
But I couldn’t pa, I knew that they’d find me
What do I do? What if they saw me!?
I can’t go outside pa, what if they saw me!!?
I’m scared papa, scared of my people
I’m scared ‘cause when I look at them… I see me too.

Son, my dear son
An aging man tries to explain
Amidst hope and dreams there’s lots of pain
These are difficult times, you’ll start to see
Perfected, this world will never be
The things you saw my son, yes they are true
But I promise those men are not like you

His eyes tear up for he knows within
The reality of the things that he’s seen
His son before him, the grip of fear
The darkness within has begun to leer

Hear me now! you’re filled with light…
And for that light you’ve got to fight
Many we know have lost their way
Yet another innocent might have to pay
But we cannot cower or turn our backs
For evil grows where courage lacks

On deaf ears his words did fall
Once hopeful eyes had already dulled
So on his knees, his muscles tense
Unprepared, with no defense
The mists unite beneath his eyes
For in his arms an innocent cries…

Akin O.
October 2007

Saturday, October 6, 2007

24

One of the poems I found in a dusty old booklet from way back when. I couldn't help but edit it... You can find the original piece here.

The sun rises, and then it sets
An age long path without an end
As it raises its head over the edge of the earth
Does it hold its breath for what it might find?

You see we measure our days in bits of 24
Millennia pass by, still bits of 24
Dark sins are dealt, we grieve for 24
And then we forget, and trudge on like before 

The sun has no use for the measure 24
What good's 24 when you've got much more
You’ve seen Rome fall, heard Vikings Roar
You’ve seen men fly, what is 24?

But for us without much time
Life makes more sense through eyes of 24
Death is far away, if you think in 24
We can do what’s important, not today, perhaps in 24

We know men die, in less than 24
To beat our pride, takes more than 24
I know I’m wrong, you need my help
And time is short, Just give me 24

And so we rise, and then we set
An age long path without an end
As we raise our heads over the edge of the earth
We hold not our breaths… the world’s the same as the previous 24. 

Akin O.
October 2007 | Edited November 2013

Wednesday, December 6, 2006

Where are we?

So I went to visit my parents this weekend and found some old poems in a dusty booklet. It's a fascinating read - a glimpse into the mind of a 22 year old me. Enjoy.

Where are the voices?
the heroes who fight for justice
in the midst of war, of terror for terror
where are those who stand for all the right choices?

They attacked our cities so we destroyed theirs
they can't build nukes although we have ours
how can we feel safe with them on the loose?
so with our might we do as we choose?

Where are the saints?
those whom this world has failed to taint
the salt of the earth who bring light to injustice
where are you while innocents in refuge camps wait?

The target is Bin Laden
somewhere in the desert we're sure he's hiding
a flash of light; we're in Iraq
where's the real terror? one has to ask

Where are the rebels?
those who stand for the value of the heavens
you call yourselves christian; I call you forward
how can you sit and watch this reign of devils?

A year has passed, Iraq's still at war
we hear now our reasons to engage were greatly flawed
who I ask, has greater cause to live in terror?
how many more have we given a cause to die for?


Akin Ogunsola
December 2006.